Monday, August 3, 2009

If I can love..

..you more....sigh...

My family dog of 14 years, Bronnie, just passed away on Friday, so yes, it's been a rough weekend for me, not to mention the common cold Baby G has to suffer. Just like an episode of Oprah, I really really regret that I didn't have the chance to say goodbye, stand by her when she needs me, or say I love you, or show her how she means to me, no, I just took her being for granted, it's (always) too late now and I deeply regret that. With all those Oprah episodes and movies and books with similar moral I am still an ignorant idiot who think of Bronnie as just another old furniture in the house.

My brother put a song by Jackson 5, Ben, into a really good interpretation of Bronnie's life. She was taken from the street by my father, along with her sister, at merely 6 months or so, given by my father to his acquaintance for another months, and then we finally adopted her when she was about 1 year old. Her sister stayed with the acquaintance, but her life was even shorter. Bronnie had many great personalities and you can say that she was an "easy" pet. She required very little pampering, rarely got sick, ate almost anything, slept almost anywhere, and very easily toilet trained (she's even the one who refused to took a leak everywhere, she had a favorite spot in our garden). She's hug-able (you can notice her cute chubby stature) and always in a good (not the too excited one) mood. Maybe that's the reason I took her for granted. Sigh. I can go on and on and I still have that hole in my heart. I can't never be the same person again now.

I need to move on, be very strong. If you're kind enough, please help me immortalized Bronnie by using this patterned paper of her to your creation. Please feel free to use it any way you can. here.


  1. bronnie - such a beautiful dog.

    you know, my dog foxie, was a labrador, died at the old age of 14 or 15 when i was about 10. I grew up with him. i will always consider him a family member, and he will always be in my heart forever. i know his soul is looking over me, protecting me still.

    i understand what you're going through. dogs are always by our side, protecting us and loving us. they never hold a grudge.

    bronnie looks like such a sweet dog. im sure she knows how much you love her =)

    i love the digital art you created of her.

    p.s. thank you for your lovely comment.would you like to exchange links?


  2. what a gorgeous dog. i'm sorry to hear she's gone.

    on a lighter note, your new pattern is such a sweet way to remember her. and it's very very cute!

  3. I'm sorry to hear this.. I'm sure Bronnie is in good place with the Angels now and she wouldn't wish to see you sad.

    Sometimes I look at my Nono and imagine what will happen if he were to leave me one day. The thought of it was unbearable but still, I know that's life and nothing last forever. At least we'd learn to treasure everyone around us now. Be strong, Ning! :)


  4. I'm really sorry for your lost. I'm sure Bronnie understand that you love her as much as she loved you. Take care! I love the pattern too, really nice and kind of you to remember her like that.

  5. oh what a smoochy looking dog...you will be sad for a long time :(
    (((hugs to you)))

  6. I really feel for you, it is so heart breaking to lose someone you love. Although you think you should have done more I'm sure your dog felt your love everyday. She will always be a part of your life, even if you can't see her. As time goes by you will find she is always with you, in your heart. Take care and give your baby lots of cuddles xo

  7. oh! im sorry for your lost. i have two dogs and i cant'n imagine my life with out them. I hope you feel better every day. Bronnie loves you and sure she knows how much you love her. Dogs are amazing. Thanks for sharing.

  8. hi ! i used your paper to wrap the book i use to write all my favorites in berlin (germany). i always have it in my bag.
    hold on tight and receive my kindest toughts

  9. I'm so sorry to hear this! Hang in there and love her memories.


  10. So sorry to hear about bronnie's passing. The passing of a canine friend is really sad but i hope you feel better soon. Get well soon to baby G too!

  11. I'm glad that you posted this - this makes me realize that I need to be more attentive to my faithful 'Gracie'. She is a 11 year old cocker spaniel and I have had a feeling lately that her time is coming.

    Take care and you'll see her someday - she's up there waiting and watching over you.


  12. my heart goes out to you today. i am soo sorry for the loss your dog. Thank you for sharing such a WONDERFUL paper in her memory! :) Have a BLESSED day!

  13. oh no, i am so sorry for bronnie's passing. i have a dog too, and i shudder to imagine life without her, i love her so much. i can only imagine how hard this must be for you. i hope that you feel better soon! There is a saying, "All dogs go to heaven." She is up there watching over you :-)

  14. I am so sorry for your loss. Bronnie looks like such a sweet dog, I totally see the hugable in her, what a sweetheart. The paper is such a wonderful way to memorialize her, what a fabulous mesh of your personalities. I'll be linking to it in memory of Bronnie.

    Hugs to you and your whole family.

  15. Oh, I'm so sorry for your loss :(
    That patterned paper is beautiful. You did a fantastic job!


  16. My heart goes out to you...I have been here. Such a loss, I know.

  17. I really regret your lost.
    I understand how you're felling and I would just like to say that I believe that Bronnie is now a little star and she will always be there protecting you.

  18. What a wonderful way to remember her.

    She knew she was loved. Pets always know us on the inside.

    I am so sorry for your lose. I am so glad that she got to be your friend.

  19. I am so sorry to hear this. It's always so hard to lose a special dog. Bronnie sounds like a sweetheart -- I love dogs with stubby legs. Thank you for sharing the Bronnie paper.

  20. Dogs don't just go to heaven. They go to Rainbow Bridge. And when you die you will be reunited with your dog. I do truly believe that. I'm so sorry for your loss.

  21. why didn't i see this post? i'm so sorry! bronnie was gorgeous

  22. so sorry for your loss!! :-( Such an adorable dog! darling paper :-)very sweet idea. huge hugs!!! Britt

  23. I just ran into your post and truly feel your pain. My sweet sweet German Sheppard, Storm passed away 1.5years ago at the age of 13 from cancer. He fought hard and I fought hard with him and he died at home in my arms an hour before I was on my way to work. Just thinking about it still gives me such pain and tears. Even his team of vets choked up and sent flowers for him. I miss him deeply but feel so blessed to have had a wonderful companion for all those years.

    Take relief in knowing that your pup is in a good place where there's no pain or suffering and is still watching over you. The feeling of guilt (I hate to say) will never go away. That's just how we are as humans and always feel we could/should have done more. But beating ourselves over it will never help.

    Take time to grieve and before you know it the cute stories and memories will take over the pain more often.

    Here are my little pups at play:


    All the best.


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